The Uncool Topic of the 21st Century

Let's be honest. As young women, we hate the topic modesty. I mean seriously, how are we suppose to feel sexy if the collar of our shirts have to choke us? Trust me, I struggle with this on a daily basis. I haven't grown up in a modest setting. So, this is new for me as well. And I tell ya, I hate it for all the wrong reasons, and my heart is changing for all the right ones. Modesty isn't just a physical thing either, it's also a heart and attitude thing. Yes, clothing is a huge part of it, but the way you talk and the way you act is so important.

Let's tackle the clothing thing first. I'm not a legalist, so I'm not going to give you a bunch of does and don'ts. All I ask is that you do a heart check when you pick your clothes out. Ask yourself these questions: am I wearing this for attention? Who am I wearing this for? Do I want to be treated as an object or a person? Will this outfit give  me respect or give me negative attention? Yes, it's nice to be admired, exciting to be idolized, and extremely addictive to feel in control over someone's view of you. BUT, not only is it dangerous, it's also very inadequate in comparison to being genuinely appreciated, respected, and admired on substance.Now, lets talk about what comes from your mouth. The way you talk is not only a reflection of your heart, but also a reflection of who you are as a person. Have you ever heard the expression 'think before you speak'? Its very true, and very appropriate to uphold and practice on a daily babsis. Conversations shouldn't sound like one big orgy on a sailor boat. It's inappropriate for the opposite sex to converse with one another in a sexual based conversation with every other word dropping the 'F bomb' or with any
other curse word. Also, those conversations shouldn't be among a closed gender discussion either. I know what your thinking, where is the fun in that? Or, lighten up? Am I right?What about actions? Taking sexy photos, telling dirty jokes, always having a sarcastic or negative attitude, and the 'just kidding' jokes. It's also in the way you walk and how you carry yourself. There is a fine line between confidence and flirtatousness. There is a difference in being genuine and being condescending. There really isn't a whole lot that I can say on the actions side of things, because it is so black and white. There are no gray areas. We all know the difference between right and wrong. All I ask is that you do a heart check. Really ask yourself the really hard questions, and I encourage you to be honest with yourself. I know a lot of you are like 'who does she think she is'? I'll be honest, I struggle with all of this too. I have a mouth on me. I use curse words; whether with my friends from my childhood, or with my very worldly family. I am very sarcastic and brutally honest. I like dressing the way that I want to dress. I was raised in a very open environment and came from the world. I don't like having restrictions, or being told what I can or cannot do. I know how a lot of girls feel about the modest topic. I get it. But, I am a huge advocate for the protection of girls, young ladies, women, and elderly women. I am also a huge advocate for respect, and I firmly believe that if one wants respect, you first have to respect yourselves and others.
I'm learning too. My heart is changing,because Jesus is constantly changing me. I like wearing tight clothing and feeling pretty, but I love my brothers and sisters in Christ more. I feel beautiful when I am obeying God's commands. Sexy is an object's fantasy, being beautiful is a woman's destiney. Sexy is for a night, Beautiful is for forever





Loneliness and Affliction

There are many days where I feel loneliness and affliction creeping into my heart and through my very bones. What I have come to realise is that God is everywhere, and there are moments when He makes His presence known. But what about the times that He seems nowhere to be found? That's Him calling for you to go to Him for comfort, for company, for help. His silence is Him calling for you to go to Him. But even though He might be silent, He is always in control.

I'll give you an example from my own experience. Eleventh grade, I was saved and completely on fire for the Lord. I had my devotions, I spent time being thankful and praising God for all the good things. Then I started compromising on somethings. I became less thankful, praising became a Sunday thing only, and my devotions began to collect dust just like my relationship with God had. Instead of feeling God around me and knowing that I was never alone, I became lonely, depressed and bitter. Everything started to fall apart. Where was God? Why couldn't I feel His presence? It was because I no longer saw a relevent need for Him in my life. He never left me, He never turned His back on me, and He never gave up on me. No, He took away all the things that were of no use to me, and filled me with everything that I truly needed. He made Himself relevent and necessary. Through all the good stuff I couldn't see, feel, or hear God. The only way He was going to get my attention was by making things harder for me. Anybody can say 'thank you for a beautiful day', but how many can say 'thank you, Holy Heavenly Father for this rainy day'?

I have been going through this for 3 years now, and only now can I say that I am truly greatful for this trial! I have been so lonely and bitter and sad and angry, and it's all been because I had taken my eyes off the One and Only who delights in me.

I am a mess of brokenness, and I had been filthy, but God isn't. He is whole, clean, wonderful, just, and mighty. He isn't afraid to get dirty. He has cleansed me, mended my brokenness, and has and will always love me.

 

Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted. The troubles of my heart are enlarged; bring me out of my distresses. Psalm 25:16,17



God Couldn't Make it Rain at a Better Time

I thought everything was falling into place. I spent an amazing month in Washington, D.C., with my then boyfriend, I was about to move out of my parents house, and I almost had a great money flow of a job. Everything was going so great, that I took my eyes off of God. I became willing to compromise on my family, friends, my relationship with God, and even compromise on my virginity. Yes, I am still a virgin. Anyways. Even though everything was going great on the outside, I was suffering on the inside. I had lost more than I had ever realized. I turned my back on everything that I loved, and didn't even see it. I was out of the house for two weeks, and then I was right back home again. I failed in getting the money flow job, and was put into a cafeteria at an elementary school. Guy made it painfully obvious that I wasn't enough for him, and thus I ended our relationship. I am constantly reminded everyday that I wasn't enough for guy. And I am constantly reminded that I am broken and weak and useless on my own account. Yes, everything fell apart on the outside, but everything has fallen together on the inside. Instead of having a job, I have a career that I can move up in. Instead of being set up to fail on my own, I have a huge support system and my parents and I are continually making progress in our relationship. Instead of being worthless to guy, I am everything to my heavenly Father.

 I am growing in my walk in faith with Jesus. I wouldn't be able to say that if God had let me go down my own path. No, God loved me enough to knock me down, to pick me up, and to give me something better. My prayer is that He will continue to love me and to come after me everytime I go astray.

As I write more blogs, you will continue to see me say this at the end:

God is not afraid of my brokenness, my need for dependency or my emotional roller coaster. He has washed me in the blood of His Son Himself.

 

God couldn't make it rain at a better time.

My First Blog. Let's get to know Me First.

So, this is my first blog. Never had I done this before. First off, I am a redeemed sinner. That means that I struggle with sin on a daily basis, I do slip up and sin. It also means that I am broken and not perfect. But with that said, my sins are forgiven, I continually repent and ask for God's help to fight against my sin. It also means that in my brokenness, God has made me whole and is perfect for me. Second, I welcome any comments or direct messages. Whether you have questions or just want to talk, I'm always open to it. I'm mainly writing from my own experiences, so expect real honesty. I ask for respect on this. I hope that you are emcouraged by my blog and that you can plainly see God's light through this.

 

 

 

 

 

 

                     Please forgive my inexperience with this.