God Couldn't Make it Rain at a Better Time

I thought everything was falling into place. I spent an amazing month in Washington, D.C., with my then boyfriend, I was about to move out of my parents house, and I almost had a great money flow of a job. Everything was going so great, that I took my eyes off of God. I became willing to compromise on my family, friends, my relationship with God, and even compromise on my virginity. Yes, I am still a virgin. Anyways. Even though everything was going great on the outside, I was suffering on the inside. I had lost more than I had ever realized. I turned my back on everything that I loved, and didn't even see it. I was out of the house for two weeks, and then I was right back home again. I failed in getting the money flow job, and was put into a cafeteria at an elementary school. Guy made it painfully obvious that I wasn't enough for him, and thus I ended our relationship. I am constantly reminded everyday that I wasn't enough for guy. And I am constantly reminded that I am broken and weak and useless on my own account. Yes, everything fell apart on the outside, but everything has fallen together on the inside. Instead of having a job, I have a career that I can move up in. Instead of being set up to fail on my own, I have a huge support system and my parents and I are continually making progress in our relationship. Instead of being worthless to guy, I am everything to my heavenly Father.

 I am growing in my walk in faith with Jesus. I wouldn't be able to say that if God had let me go down my own path. No, God loved me enough to knock me down, to pick me up, and to give me something better. My prayer is that He will continue to love me and to come after me everytime I go astray.

As I write more blogs, you will continue to see me say this at the end:

God is not afraid of my brokenness, my need for dependency or my emotional roller coaster. He has washed me in the blood of His Son Himself.

 

God couldn't make it rain at a better time.